Deep within a soul

O FIM DO BLOG

2009-08-04T14:23:00.000-07:00

É galera, tudo o que é bom acaba... Não não não... Na vida nada termina, se transforma. Prefiro assim. É que vou ser sincero nesse post de hoje, estou cansado demais dessa vida de blogueiro. Tenho 4 blogs ativos (lógico, nenhum deles é passivo, mermão rsrs) e a cada dia que passa me meto em mais e mais projetos desse meu universo paralelo. Eu sou muito hiperativo, deu para perceber pelos blogs, não é mesmo? E foi em um devaneio louco que passou por essa cabeça medíocre que cheguei a conclusão de que deveria acabar com todos os meus blogs.

Calma, isso não significa que deixaria de estar presente. Vamos lá, como tenho 4 blogs ativos e distintos que venho alimentando nesses 2 anos de vida blogueira resolvi jogar tudo no liquidificador e montar uma coisa só. Sim, uma única coisa. Criei o meu “Portão” de notícias meu, não só de notícias é verdade, e é por ele que todos vocês poderão conhecer um pouco mais do meu mundo, que não é lá tão dividido como nos blogs. Sou um só, não é? Então, não precisava ter quatro blogs.

E orgulhosamente apresento a vocês o Renan Barreto Online, ou RBO para os íntimos, que tem uma função apenas. Fazer você, leitor ou leitora, um pouco menos inteligente do que é e se informando com conteúdo de segunda mão. Afinal, escrever com as uma mão só é cansativo, como é bom ser ambidestro.

Então, o que está esperando pra me visitar na nova casa? Odeio esperar. Sou meio impaciente sabe.

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Neste verão

2009-08-03T10:11:00.000-07:00

Me encontre ao meio dia

Assim como da última vez, então

Escolhi esse horário por ser mais adequado

Porque só tenho meio coração

Prometo que não irei fugir

Nem faz parte da minha loucura já que estou são

Sei que não irei dormir

Chegarei lá na hora com um leve balançar de mão

Prometo que não verei lágrimas

Pois meus olhos são de pedra

Não vejo mais como antes mas tenho uma razão

Agora aprendi e dou até aulas

Depois de tudo, depois da queda

Consegui me levantar do frio chão

Me encontre uma vez mais

Não importa se a hora é ruim

Me encontre para me despedir ou irei não

De qualquer jeito, tanto faz

Vamos simplesmente fazer assim

Parto agora e viajarei nesta estação

Sinto que não esperarei o inverno chegar

O frio é triste

Quero recomeçar

Viajarei neste verão

Friends

2009-07-31T20:33:00.001-07:00

It's not easy but it's time
You must do what you are meant to
I know it too
But I never had courage in my life

Go and tell me what it's like
Another may tell me if you don't come back
It's not a big deal, and you know why?
Because I have something you never had
Having you as a friend

Friends is all we need
Love may come
But true friends come and never go away
Friends is all we need
They're a few not some
And they are with till the end of days

Strange nonsense

2009-07-27T17:44:00.000-07:00

There's a feeling I feel and a place I must go

This was a dream surreal, it's was real I don't know

It's a hole you're hinding, you're hiding in a hole

If you are there it's fine, it's there where I go

We can be there again

We'll be just friends

And nothing will get wrong

Maybe it won't be the same

With all the complaints

We must get along

There's a house I can find you. Now where you live?

I have to buy you a blouse or give you this

You don't like my gifts and that's I know

You don't want me but I'll stay with you though

Now it's time to play. Well it's your turn

If you don't go ahead nothing will move on

And forever aching your heart will be

In a matter of speaking stay with me

We can be there again

We'll be just friends

And nothing will get wrong

Maybe it won't be the same

With all the complaints

We must get along

And when we're 62 we'll have many memories

And berries and cherries

And will travel the world just like old friends do

And you'll take care of me as I'll take care of you

Reality hurts

2009-07-20T08:17:00.000-07:00

It’s cold and my heart is empty
Maybe it’s filled with nothingness
Around here an angel was sent
But his face shows his loneliness

While walking in the dark I feel you’re here
It breaks my mind in two
My head hurts because I don’t have moved
Moved on to a new shore and traveled through a dead sea

Snow begins to fall
I see it falling from the ever white sky
Again I here a call
But I promised to myself I wouldn’t cry

No matter what happens
I’ll be strong
No matter what happens
I’m not all alone
No matter what happens
I’ll find a place where I really belong!!!
You hear?
I want a place to belong!!!

Maybe it’s all in my head
Illusions of death and its suddenness
I can barely swear
I won’t feel loneliness

Stop thinking out loud
Stop breathing near me
Stop making this creepy sound
Stop making me see
Reality

Amanhã já vem

2009-07-18T18:31:00.000-07:00

Como é bom saber que amanhã é bom
Louco dizer isso se não sabemos o futuro
Mas sempre será bom, então
Mesmo que estejamos no fundo ou no fim do mundo
Amanhã é luz
Amanhã é novo
Amanhã é alguém que diz eu te amo
É um desatino
É um amor
É o destino

Sei que é difícil de lembrar o que fizemos
Mas é tão fácil imaginar como o amanhã será
Não importa se é pouco o que temos
Logo o amanhã chegará

É bom saber que nossas preocupações se foram
Assim como nossos medos
Amanhã, nossa esperança
Viver sem receio
As partidas são tristes
Deixemos para depois
Se deixarmos para amanhã
Quem sabe elas nunca acontecerão?

Sei que é difícil pensar em falar de amor e perdão
Talvez mais complicado do que fazer bolo
Os fins de tarde olhando para o céu esperando por nada é tão bom
Assim como falar de ternura e paixão
Seja amante, seja louco, seja sábio, seja tolo
Seja tudo, só não deixe de ser alguém
O que é que tem?

Tudo o que digo é para o nosso bem
Tudo o que quero é sorrir
E dizer que estou com sono para logo dormir
Fique feliz. Amanhã já vem

I hear death

2009-07-18T18:18:00.000-07:00

Why fighting like this instead going else where?
I must look for the place I’m happy in
Why crying over nothing while there’s nothing in the head?
I ought to find something to believe in
Why opening the door if only the wind will enter?
I must be strong and face the fact that there is nowhere I am meant to belong

Memories of days that never were fill my mind
I look at the ceiling and I see a blured picture
Why I must seek people that never were?
Why I keep looking for if I’ll never find?

I’m here to say that all I feel means nothing
Not even my hatred is real
I have such weak thoughts
I’m used to have closed my heart with a seal

I shut tight the window for the cold is here
I was freezing but I like that
The point is I’m alone, you see?
I talk to myself and speak words I have already said

I stay close to the wall
Suddenly I hear a call
It’s a woman’s voice
But how can I hear if I’m deaf?

I don’t know what it is but I stand tall
It’s cold… That’s all
The voice
I hear death

I'm frightened but happy

I feel my heart beating

At least once in my life

Now I'm gone not knowing what is wrong and what is right

Fim de tarde

2009-07-18T18:00:00.000-07:00

Sabe aquele fim de tarde
Que a gente não tem nada para fazer?
Aquele céu laranja que chega sem alarde
E nos faz deitar na varanda sem nada para querer

O sol se recolhe aos poucos como se tivesse sono
Não sei o real motivo disso, mas acho que entendo
O cansaço chega a todos e à noite o sol toma um tombo
Mas no dia seguinte ele volta com seu esmero todo de sempre

Fim de tarde é transição, me lembra de mudança
Partidas no poente
O sol cadente ao fundo de um novo verão dorme como criança
Indo triste, mas ainda quente

São poucos que conseguem enxergar a maravilha que é o fim de tarde
Poucos sabem a importância de um carinho grátis
Alguns olham e continuam a andar...
Eu não. Prefiro parar para observar

We're going back to the beginning

2009-07-17T17:25:00.000-07:00

We're going back to the beginning

We're going back to the beginning, you know

This is the last stop

There's really nothing further

Not even a thing

We're finally on the top

We must go back to the beginning

We're going back to the beginning

We're going back to the beginning, you know

We have walked hard

And found a dead end

It's a said part

But we don't bend

It breaks my heart

To say we were sent

Back to the beginning

When I go to the bottom I go down

I raise my head upward

And see the sky

I don't cry

'cause you're in my sight

- Let's find a new way

Let's forget it

There's no need! No wait!

We need to go , you know?

Back to the beginning

We're going back to the beginning

We're going back to the beginning, you know

So we are lost

So we don't know which way to take

Let's see we have a coin to toss

and the answer to the end of the maze

Is going back to the beginning

We're going back to the beginning

We're going back to the beginning, you know

I believe in sun after rain

2009-07-11T21:10:00.000-07:00

I believe in sun after rain
I know I’m just out of my mind
But you have to trust me
I’ll make days brighter and they won’t be the same

I have a whirlwind in my soul
Maybe it’s something I must know
But I don’t care
Suddenly I’ll be there

I don’t know what my heart is for
You gotta teach me
All the things of life
I don’t know what my love is for
You gotta see that, please
Make me go out of mind

Suddenly you go
I don’t know where to
You don’t come back
I wanna know

My head is broken

My heart is missing

My chest swollen

My eyes bleeding

Maybe the rain is gonna teach me
What you had to
Maybe my days will be the same
All without you

I believe in sun after rain
I know I’m just out of my mind

I have strengh in my heart

And I know what I'm gonna find in this life!

Think about the days of yore

2009-07-10T11:55:00.000-07:00

I have something to say

Something I believe no one will blame

I have something that belongs to you

I'd throw it away but I don't know what to do

Let's get out now and talk about silly stuff

Just you and me

Let's date under a tagerine tree

It'll be good, you'll see

Don't close your eyes so often

It's hard to walk with them open

But light will guide your way through

I'll guide you

Nothing is so real that cannot be a dream

I dream of you

And think of all the things you do and more

Think about the days of yore

Só viva e deixe viver

2009-07-09T09:41:00.001-07:00

E é só amor e nada mais

Seja o que for se não doer não tem graça

Assim é a vida nossa de cada dia

Amando, odiando, chorando e rindo por não ter nada

Sendo um homem ou mulher

Faça só o que tens na cabeça, o que quiser

Esqueça que alguns são o que são por aparência

E não têm experiência

De dizer o que se quer

Lembra, como o mundo era antes?

Não? Amar assim é o que faz seu mundo girar

Gira como se nunca fosse parar

Até que alguém grita Stop e você cai por não acreditar

O amor acaba, a vida acaba

Nada é eterno. Nada nem o mar

Tudo o que é pra sempre não tem graça

A única coisa que tem que ser eterna é a nossa capacidade de sonhar

A verdade por trás da razão do meu viver

E do ser

Seja quem quiser

Homem ou mulher

Só viva e deixe viver

For all I care I'll be there!

2009-06-27T18:17:00.000-07:00

Let me feel your heart beating

Let me really feel what you're feeling

Forget about the past. I don't care

Just call me and I'll be there

I keep thinking about a dream I dreamed

I want to feel the joy I felt

I want it for me so stay aware

I steal your heart for it is all I care

You feel young that's great

I'm here behind it

It's a song I've sung, mate

I never hide it

Cause I found it

in your chest

My reason to live and feel alive

I just want to let you know I'll be by your side

It doesn't matter what they say

It's me who will get you better

Just call me and I'll be there

Anywhere for all I care

Voar

2009-06-26T09:33:00.000-07:00

Quero só voar sem ter direção

Quero saber como chegar, mas tenho medo de te encontrar

Sabe como é meu coração

Quero ter como lhe ver

Sem ter medo de não a levar

O céu com nuvens negras vai me dizer

O que devo fazer nessas horas de dor

Sinto que o seu olhar se perde em todas as direções

Não tenho medo de voar em meio a escuridão

Mas me diga uma vez mais

São suas asas que te mantém no ar?

Não importa se você não quer voltar

Não vou chorar, mas não posso negar

Sinto falta de uma companhia assim

Que me diga o que fazer nessas horas

Vá e me diga como é e como deve ser

Não sei se vou ou não gostar

Seja como for nunca vou duvidar

De sua palavra

Enquanto estamos voando solitários no céu

Em noites sem estrelas

Não tenho mais espadas nem elmos

Mas lutarei uma vez mais sem pestanejar

Afinal, a liberdade final é voar...

Death equals deaf

2009-06-21T16:52:00.000-07:00

The wind blowing in the woods
The apples falling from the trees
I couldn’t
Help me
The whole world moving
And I couldn’t hear
What was far away or near

I’m upside down living in a torn reality
I’m somewhere between the real and the make believe world
I’m walking sadly
I can’t hear a word!!!!

I’m living underneath the ground
I see, there’s nothing good to talk about
And I want to tell all I think and all my choices
But I can’t even hear my own voice

What am I thinking?
I heard something
Someone singing!
So beautifully
So silently
With the heart
You’re the sight that made me hear again
Weird, isn’t it?
My vision brought me back from the mute world
I’m not deaf anymore
Since when you broke that door…

Love is in store

2009-06-19T10:11:00.000-07:00

And he could’ve told you what he was looking for
Although neither did he knew what was it
You loved him like I loved her
If I could just help you, everything would be all right

And I want to tell you all I’ve been through
It’s gonna be better than before
I swear to you the pain you bear will be healed soon

Bring me happiness just for a while
He’s gone
I’m so used to forget all the good stuff, but never forgot to smile

If I fall you’d just watch instead of catching me
The way you watched him go away running from all you built
I know it’s hard to get but it’s true

How long you want to live?
You never saw the ocean
Never saw who I really am
Maybe one day you will
In a storm or in the rain
You choose
You are exhausted I see that in your eyes
Try and fight
And everything will be all right

I don’t want to drown in my own tears
I have a reason and purposes in this life
All I want is turn your darkness into light

None of your efforts will bring him back
Put this in your silly head
I’m here… It’s sad…
But it’s true
Let’s live now
Me and you
Or we will die in our own memories

Wake up and say ‘hi’ to the world
Forget you have problems and a troubled life
I’ll guide your way toward the light
Everything is going to be all right

Um pássaro voando

2009-06-15T09:55:00.001-07:00

Ouça ele vindo

Sinta sua presença

Ele pode não voltar

Mas ainda tenha sua crença

Ele saiu e te deixou

Mas deixou o mundo também

Sumiu e nada lhe restou

A não ser a memória de um certo alguém

Aprendeste a ser mais feliz com ele

Aprendeste a sorrir

Aprendeste a correr e tudo de bom teve

Aprendeste a ser assim

Ele foi-se com sonhos

Mas esqueceu de deixar os seus

Levou tantos que com eles desapareceu

Você não poderia prever

Aliás, ainda não pode crer

Que ele se foi sem adeus dizer

Se bem, que ele não disse pra ninguém

Você foi feliz com ele

Foi triste

Aprendeu a viver

Aprendeu como é o seu ser

Agora libertas-te dessa prisão de lágrimas

E viva como se fosse morrer amanhã de algum mal derradeiro

Mesmo sem saber, esse foi um conselho sábio

E verdadeiro

Eu fiquei

2009-06-13T19:01:00.000-07:00

De braços abertos vejo o horizonte

Sendo aprisionado por aqueles que têm medo

De longe ou de perto não sei ao certo até onde

Poderei ir sem ter receio de chegar tarde ou cedo

Você que quer me derrotar

Saibas que nunca conseguirá

Poderemos lutar para sempre

O final será igual, nunca diferente

Eu continuarei do mesmo jeito

Assim como no começo

Quando ainda tínhamos forças

Sinta ódio, mas não sinta medo

Caso contrário saberás seu desfecho

Ouças

No fim sei que não vou

No fim sei que não mudarei

Você se foi...

Eu fiquei

ME 3

2009-06-11T18:35:00.001-07:00

I tried to do it some time ago

But I hadn't got what it takes to be the best one

I cried out my soul

And then I realized I have none

I tried my best but I couldn't suceed

I tried my worst but I wasn't so complete

I tried to be just me

But I'm nothing but a name

What a shame

They doubt me

They fear me

They think I'm dangerous

They talk about me

They see me

They think I'm contagious

I am myself

I'm no one else

I'm here with this prize

I just want somebody by my side

Ode a Ícaro

2009-06-05T11:45:00.001-07:00

Ele só queria voar
Ele só queria encontrar um bom lugar
Ele só queria ter algum lugar para retornar

Ele só queria alguém por perto
Ele só queria deixar de ser incerto
Ele só queria gritar de peito aberto

Ele só queria voltar no tempo e consertar o que estava errado
Ele só queria ter um nome novo
Ele só queria mudar e não o contrário

Ele era simples
Ele era difícil
Ele era um Aquiles
Ou o próprio destino

A vida pela leitura

2009-06-05T11:42:00.000-07:00

Ela continua lendo o livro e eu aqui sem entender
Vejo as figuras e ela me diz o que eu só consigo ver
Quando eu for adulto aprenderei a ler
Você vai ver

Vejo as figuras, mas elas só ilustram a minha leitura
São só imagens
Mas a viagem é mostrada pelas palavras
Algumas vezes selvagens

Os óculos vieram para me ajudar
Não consigo mais ler tão bem
Só com eles consigo enxergar
Mas o que é que tem?

Hoje só ouço alguém me contar
Uma história bonita para eu me deliciar
Falam de fatos que há tempos ouvi
Agora é minha neta que lê para mim

The one called Me

2009-06-01T19:08:00.000-07:00

I take this soul
That is inside you
I will always know
What to do

Allow me to show who I really am
And never think of leaving
I found out what the truth looks like, then
It’s just what I’m thinking

I go out and have another sense of wealth
I need to find myself
Take me out of your shelf
I need to be myself!
Yeah!!!!!!

Take it slow
I have to be true
Under the sun or in the snow
It’ll be so cool

Allow me to walk out this dirty road
I want to live with the wind in my hair
I love you the most
But I am also part of everywhere

I go out and have another sense of wealth
I need to find myself
Take me out of your shelf
I need to be myself!
Yeah!!!!!!

I’m tired living in a hole
I’ll see what I have to see
I feel I’m getting close
To discover who is this one I call me

Ultimate freedom

2009-05-31T14:50:00.000-07:00

It's all a mystery to me

I hope I'll understand it someday

But all that anger and greed

Makes me sick cause no one pays

They're so crazy and selfish

I don't want to swim with them

Living without rules... I wish

I just need to ask you to come back again

Don't be lonely

I'll be with you

I hope you're well

I'll shelter you tightly

That's what I'll do

You just need to swear...

- I love you

I'm far from home but who's not?

I just have to know who is this one who lives inside of me

And then I'll be born

My birth will be filled with wisdom

I'd like to go with you and not alone

But all I want is ultimate freedom!!!

Don't be lonely

I'll be with you

I hope you're well

I'll shelter you tightly

That's what I'll do

You jus need to swear...

- I love you

The journey of a sad young man

2009-05-30T13:25:00.000-07:00

This is the start of my jouney that means a lot to me
I’ll get to know who I really want to be
While you pursue me I’ll keep wandering
And if you never find me again
Take a deep breath and keep up with your life

On benches I sleep silently
No one ever understood my reasons
For getting into a journey like this
I want to gaze the sky in every season
And forget all the lies and treasons

I want to go somewhere far from here
Discover myself and find something to believe in
So I’ll keep going sailing on this neverending sea
You don’t have to fear it, I have all I need
I’m alive and I still have dreams

If I forever disappear
Look at my old photos and remember all that was good
In order to remember me
So it’ll be a neverfogetting tool

My journey is far from the final stop
I have to put myself together in order to be whole
I’ll come back when I’m at the top
Or at the end of the road

I don’t care for love, life, hatred, knife
Laughter, crys, no places or sights
Give me truth instead of lies
That’s all I ask
Simply look into my eyes

I want to say it's all that I can

give, share, please, care, live

It's just who I am

and this song is about a sad young man

Life and whatever it is

2009-05-29T13:49:00.000-07:00

It's a new mistake

A new way fo doing it again

The choice is yours to make

So just think then

Let's go and find out who we are

Let's forget who they think we are

Do what you can

And Repeat it again

Let's dance in the woods

Let's live and sing

I want to say I did all I could

Let's go do something

Erase the sad memories

Let good stuff in

Let's grab some cherries

Or at least let's do some unique things

You hold me tight

2009-05-28T08:40:00.000-07:00

I'd like to tell you how I feel

I'd like to say it's for real

But this time, all that matters is this starry night

Well you must go and show me how you do it

I'd like to tell you about your strong will

I'd like to tell you It's not a big deal

But this time, all that matter is this good bye

Well you must know and close your eyes

I'd like to tell you it's a new way

Of saying the same things

It's so unfair not to care about life and love

Don't ever dare to come here closed

The broken parts will be fixed

The inner good will be unleashed

Say it once more... Say it only for me

Tell me now you'll come like yore

The way you say it

The way you do it

The way you hold it

The way you love it

Is just the way you live

The way you live... With me

So, you belong here

You keep me

You hold me tight

Blindness

2009-05-23T18:15:00.000-07:00

What would happen if I go blind?

I'd talk normaly or I'd die?

I'd be free or still have prejudices?

I'd be joking or I'd cry?

I'd judge or I'd help no matter what?

I'd tell the truth or I'd just lie?

I'd hide and be caught?

I'd live and always fight?

What would happen if I was the only one who see?

I'd betray you?

I'd be a leader?

I'd pretend I'm blind too?

I'd go anywhere whitout rules?

I'd kill and eat all the food?

I'd fly and make everyone pay?

I'd keep judging playing this game?

Society has no dignity

I don't want to dance like they do

I'm not so silly

I assume you're not too

Renan’s lulaby

2009-05-18T14:03:00.000-07:00

Sleep tight and forget all that is bad
Feel all right my dear friend
Sleep tight and forget you’re sad
Just hold my hand

Sleep well my darling
Tomorrow will come fast, you’ll see
Free you mind
And wait until dawn

Hear my words
Listen carefully
You will wake up soon enough
Hear my voice
Now I’m singing
Just for you though

Sleep tight and close your eyes
While you’re in your dreams
Everything will be all right
And I’ll stay by your side

Sleep tight and hug a tree in your dreams
Travel to a beautiful world
Where you can be whatever you wanna be
And free your very soul

Don’t shed a tear
All you want is here
Travel to a distant land
Holding my hand

Hear my words
Listen carefully
You will wake up soon enough
Hear my voice
Now I’m singing
Just for you though

I want to change the world

2009-05-15T15:34:00.000-07:00

Free your mind

Remember me

Take me out

Let's be what we can be

It's a new revolution where there's neither love nor hatred

It's a new solution for me to take

It's a new conclusion we have made

It's a new site, yet, like our old place

You say you want to change the world

but don't even know where to start

I want to change it with my words

I know I'm stupid and not so smart

But who knows I'll do it somehow

It doesn't need to be now

We all do what we can

But if you don't want to wait

You better get going or else you'll get hurt

Just thinking won't change the world

I want a new constituition

One I make myself

But it's not the solution

What'll I do instead?

I want to change the world

I just don't know how

But I'll do it someday

I'll never give up and I'm not going down

Dead bird

2009-05-12T20:38:00.000-07:00

If you care so much for money

Go back to your home

Stay away from me honey

And let me being lonely

Nobody knows it was a mistake

This wing was not yours to take

The wind blew my dreams away

I just don't want it to be the same

I fell into a deep hole

With nothing but my powerfull sword

Now I have only hope

And Im almost as free as a bird

I have a new word for you

So new I don't know

I'll wake up soon

And then, I go out grabbing my dirty coat

I want to go to sea

And forget about all my sad thoughts

I want to live

and remember all that I forgot

I want to go to nowhere land

And see the faceless man

He'll tell me want to do

Even if I still don't have a clue

For good!!!

2009-05-11T19:15:00.001-07:00

Don’t you want me taking you for a ride?
Don’t you want me saying I’m right?
Don’t you want me looking at nothing in the sky?
Don’t you want me saying you’re no one else’s but mine?
Now I’m going to take you for good!!!

I don’t want to leave you behind
I don’t want our love to dry
I’d never do anything to make you cry
I’d go to the bottom of the earth and the top of the sky
Just to make sure you’re good!!!

You don’t want to think when I’ll die
You forget about all and every tie
You don’t want to get somewhere in your mind
A place you used to hide
I place you’d be there for good!!!

Tell me the answer and never lie
I want to live forever this kind life
I want to see you in every sight
You have to be there and keep up with the fight
Fight for good!!!

Mess

2009-05-10T14:32:00.001-07:00

Who told you it’s easy?
And that we would live forever a sweet life?
It’s a bunch of lies
But I want to believe

My silence calls you
My body is trembling for something I don’t know
I feel my bones aching
It hurts somewhere deep within my soul

“Someone falls to pieces”
But I want to stay tall whole
All I can do is try to avoid sickness
But you make me sick though

My silence, my memories, my suffering
Means nothing to you
That’s good to hear and keep listening
Why am I always the one who screw?

Leave my side
Stay behind
Hide somewhere safe
Far from my grace

It’ll end up alright
I guess
If what I’m saying is just a lie
It’s because in my heart you left a mess

Love never dies

2009-05-09T08:32:00.000-07:00

Here comes you again

Shinning like the sun

And everything you think is done

I've got your life to sustain

All the colorful flowers in the garden make a new picture

And all the laughter makes me feel so dizzy

But I feel alright in my sanctuary

Filling out a paper that needs my new signature

I cant' believe you are there

Looking just as part of nature

I'll release you from the spell

The witch has cast on you

And I can fortell

You going be happy too

Just come over and talk about good will

Talk nonsense

Talk about life, children and trees

Talk about me

We'll walk this way toward the orange sun

With nothing in our heads

I want to name our son

And I want to be with you here, there and everywhere

I see in your eyes that love never dies

I never cared

But now I know all we have to do is to share

We'll be there

A vida sem se perder

2009-05-06T22:30:00.000-07:00

Gosto de ver as pessoas caminhando

Como se não tivessem para onde ir

Como se não tivessem destino

Gosto de sair por aí cantando

Até mesmo se ninguém for ouvir

Músicas sem nenhum sentido

Gosto de respirar o ar puro

Sentir o calor do sol da manhã

E esquecer de todos os problemas

Gosto de dormir bem no escuro

E me ver no meu próprio divã

Onde falo de tudo menos dos meus dilemas

Sou um imenso quebra cabeças

Não tenho muita certeza do que sou

Aliás nem sei se sofro de fraqueza

Ou se a minha alma se fortificou

A vida é azul, é rosa, é verde

A vida é do meu tom de pele ou creme

A vida é um oásis com muita água pra matar minha sede

A vida é bonita porque não se sabe o caminho, mas ninguém se arrepende

As pequenas coisas das nossas vidas

2009-05-04T12:43:00.000-07:00

São as pequenas coisas que me fazem lembrar
O sopro do vento, o calor do corpo, o som do mar
Lembro de como era ser alguém normal
Simples, nada de especial
Alguém sem futuro ou rumo certo
Com apenas os olhos abertos
Dizendo que estava vivo

São apenas antenas que captam as ondas no ar
Fico ao relento, vejo um corvo, ouço seu gralhar
Naquele tempo era tão natural
Nada de anormal
Era só um surto sem punho para lutar correto
Com apenas os braços abertos
Abraçando um amigo

São as centenas de coisas que me fazem olhar
As que eu enfrento, de sangue morno, sem descansar
Sendo que lutar não é mais igual
É comum e triste por não ter final
Ando, mas sempre alerto
Acho que não quero ninguém por perto
É um fardo antigo

Ouvi isso antes, então
Em algum distante lugar
Onde as pessoas falam de bondade e perdão
Coisas que ninguém gosta mais de falar

Eu só queria explicar para o mundo

Que falar de si nem sempre é bom

Só queria falar de paixão

Ou escrever mais uma canção

Um coração vagabundo que não sabe o significado de amar

Uma alma estúpida que pensa que ama, mas erra sempre por tentar

Uma mente surda que fala o que não pensa e lembra o que não deveria lembrar

Queria só mais uma vez dizer que a noite naõ é assim tão fria

Mas são assim as pequenas coisas da vida

Você prometeu que ia voltar

2009-05-02T14:55:00.001-07:00

Você prometeu que ia voltar
Disse que era pra esperar
Mas tudo que vejo é uma lápide
E nada em seu lugar

Por 10 anos estive aqui na chuva ou tempo bom
Esperei por manter minhas promessas
Esperei tanto que sob a lua ou sob sol
Soube que você tinha prego uma peça

Todos os dias eu venho aqui
Sempre esperando o momento de te rever
Muita coisa mudou sim
Tanta que nem sei como dizer

A nossa vida está diferente
Agora tenho algo pelo que viver
Algo novo que você sente
E nem sabe o porquê

Você ainda teima em se atrasar
10 anos e nada de chegar
Tenho que esperar uma vida inteira
De qualquer maneira
Esperando até não agüentar

Acho que só você consegue isso
Mas aqui é onde costumávamos brincar
Você deve lembrar
Era perto de um grande eucalipto

O cheiro do perfume era bom
Ficávamos horas a rir e falar das coisas da vida
Eu era cheio de alegria
E faria tudo sem mentir

Lembro do dia em que você falou que ia embora
Eu fiquei triste, mas não disse
Mais tarde você tinha dito que era uma anedota
E eu chorei

Lembro das nossas danças desajeitadas
Nosso jeito de criança estabanada
Uma bela infância atarefada
Uma confiança exagerada

Uma noite dessas lembrei que não pude vir a este local
Pensei que você pudesse ter vindo
Nem consegui dormir
Fiquei pensando no nosso lugar especial
Fui à janela e achei que tinha ouvido sua voz chamando meu nome
Mas era só o vento que me pregava uma peça
Assim como você que me batia feito homem
Mas sabia dizer palavras doces bem de pressa

Sinto falta disso, mas não sei se você vai realmente voltar
Você é sempre a última
Quantas vezes não nos encontramos por errar?
E você me ligava pedindo desculpas

Estou no nosso lugar de sempre
Esperando você faça chuva ou nevasca
Mas sinto dizer-lhe que estou diferente
Sei que você não mudou nada

O problema de tudo é que você levou uma parte de meu coração sem pedir
Queria de volta pelo menos essa tarde
Estou sentindo falta
Acho que estou incompleto porque não tenho mais essa parte
Minha testa arde
Estou com febre
Deve ser por causa da chuva que veio sem alarde

Em pé aqui mais uma vez e você não veio
São 10 anos inteiros
Queria só vê-la de novo... De qualquer jeito

Estou fazendo o que disse a madre
A espere para sempre
Mas a única coisa que vejo é sua lápide
Que cuido contente

Nossa! Já é noite. Devo partir
Espere! Acho que a ouvi
Não, foi só o vento novamente dizendo que sou tolo por esperar
Alguém que fui incapaz de dizer a o que sentia
Alguém que nem pude dizer adeus
Por que você me prometeu que ia voltar?!!!!!!!!!!

Não adianta ficar chorando e remoendo o que passou
Estou aqui por algo que vai além do amor
Algo que não sei explicar
Algo que me aprisionou

No dia seguinte volto como de costume, mas escorrego
Minha cabeça dói um pouco
Olho para a poça d’água e vejo um reflexo
E me assusto

Olhando, meio confuso com a vista cheia de lama
Vejo você rindo com o mesmo sorriso de criança
Não acreditei quando vi
Minha única reação foi... Foi sorrir

Levantei e você só pôde dizer:
Perdão pela demora, mas é que não havia chegado a hora
A data estava errada e me desculpo agora
Meu problema com o tempo é antigo
Definitivamente ele nunca foi meu amigo

Eu continuei sem dizer nada
Não sei porque não ficou calada
Mas minha felicidade elevou-se a um patamar que nunca chegou
E foi às estrelas quando me abraçou

- Vamos embora daqui para um novo lugar especial?
Eu respondi que sim porque todos os lugares com ela são os melhores do mundo
Independente do local, seja ele bonito, feio ou vagabundo

Sua lápide sumiu
Ela não me respondeu
10 anos e ela não resistiu
Mas tremia, sorria, lembrava do sorriso seu

Agora voltei no tempo ou estou enlouquecendo?
Observei uma flor branca no solo
Mas foi levada pelo vento
Eu a tinha depositado quando partiu em seu colo

Tudo está preto
Está chovendo de novo
Minha cabeça dói e sofri com receio
De morrer de medo

Acordei depois de 5 horas com o rosto sujo
Olho pra cima e só vejo o céu
Sorrio mudo
Lembrando de seus olhos cor de mel

Levanto ainda machucado
Dou meia volta sabendo que era o caminho errado
Em busca de uma nova flor branca
E não descansarei em quanto não tiver encontrado

Sei que você levou a chave
Mas sinto que no meu coração não falta mais aquela parte
Você me devolveu
Agora posso, finalmente, dizer adeus

Adeus...

Você prometeu que ia voltar
Disse que era pra esperar
Mas tudo que vejo é uma lápide
E nada em seu lugar

Depois da batalha

2009-05-02T06:17:00.001-07:00

A luta terminou, devemos voltar
O sangue jorrado no chão foi em vão
A sua verdade não é a que estou a procurar
Sei que nunca mais serei são

Minha espada atravessou almas
Cortou vidas
Partiu corações
Ela é lavada com lágrimas
De pessoas vencidas
Mortas aos milhares, aos milhões

Fui o rei que não soube liderar
Fui o soldado que não soube hesitar
Fui o homem que não soube reconhecer a beleza do luar
Fui o jovem que se perdeu por amar

As guerras me levaram embora
Para terras distantes onde ela mora
A morte que me acompanhou
Ela me ajudou, mas não me levou

Me disseram que não era nada
E que voltaria rápido
Mas acho que nunca voltarei pra casa

Minha vida se foi com o sangue dos vencidos
Num lugar onde os pobres não são ouvidos
E onde uma minoria sem coração é quem domina
Matando por vingança em cada esquina

Só queria ter a certeza feliz
De saber que estas bem
Mesmo que distante
Pelo menos estaria bem também

Sinto que me venceu
Nessa batalha perdi
Meu espirito morreu
Mas não quero nunca lhe dizer adeus

Não me faça implorar
Só queria vê-la sorrir uma vez mais
Não me peça para ficar nesse lugar
Quero apenas estar ao seu lado em paz

I don't want to title this

2009-05-01T13:55:00.000-07:00

Quando vier fique apenas 10 minutos e 5 meses
Sua companhia me faz bem sim
Mas se precisas ir que vá
Sinto falta às vezes
Obrigado por pensar em mim
Só quero ficar um pouco em paz

A verdade é difícil de ser entendida
Assim como você
Mas é assim a vida
O que posso fazer?

Não importa o que eu quero
Não importa o que eu preciso
Minha alma é pobre
E sofre por também não ser forte

Os meus sacrifícios foram em vão
Assim como meus pecados
Será que pequei por minha opinião?
Ou só amei errado?

Não tenha medo de dizer o que sente
Ame sem receio
Mesmo vivendo em tempos diferentes
O nosso fim não teve um começo

Isso é o que tenho de melhor
Minha compaixão, não sei
Mas ser bom demais
Foi onde errei

Não importa o que eu quero
Não importa o que eu preciso
Minha alma é pobre
E sofre por também não ser forte

É hora de acordar
Esses dias de outono são os mais lindos de todos
Vou olhar para o céu e caminhar
E mudar, deixar de ser um tolo

Percebi que o maior de todos os erros
Foi o personagem que criei
Devia ter sido eu mesmo
E não ir pelo caminho que tracei

A vida é real e não encenação
Não vivemos em um palco
Errei mais uma vez então
Não sou protagonista de uma peça de teatro
Me perdi e não fui encontrado
Jogado...
Talvez a gente sempre vai errar
Quando se trata de amar

Não importa o que eu quero
Não importa o que eu preciso
Minha alma é pobre
E sofre por também não ser forte

Se por acaso eu não voltar
Saiba que terei partido então
Assim como você partiu meu coração

Why is it so hard to love?
Why is it so dangerous?
Why does it hurt so much?
Why can't I cry?

What wil happen when I die ?

2009-04-30T13:23:00.001-07:00

I feel that my soul is running away from me
I don't want to see this happening
What will happen if I close my eyes?
You think I would die?

Being lonely is not so hard
But I don't want to be apart
From myself

I hear someone callin' me
Is that mom or...
an elf ?

I feel my body aching too much
I feel others sad memories
I see what's true and what's lie
What will happen when I die?

You see me broken
I know I'm not whole
But my other half is gone

What can I do if the truth has not been spoken?
I fell into a deep hole
And nothing good's done

I feel my heart burning
I see you're not turning...back
Please, go but not cry
Just answer what will happen when I die.

Meio

2009-04-30T10:08:00.001-07:00

Tem gente que não entende
Que não confia em ninguém
Que aprende e mantém
Seu jeito errado pra seu próprio bem
Não sei que bem é esse
Nem sei se ele existe
Mas quem conhece não desiste
De procurá-lo também

Sempre jogam seus erros como se não fossem nada
Mas erros são erros de verdade
E é raridade vê-los
Principalmente se pertencem a nós mesmos

Mais tarde o sol chega pra dizer que tudo começa depois do fim
Não importa o que é ou como termina
Mas se todo fim é um começo
Então, ele não existe
E insiste em aparecer

Havia um tempo em que todos acreditavam
Esse lado meu do “Tudo acreditar” pode não estar lá
O medo chega quando não temos explicação
Prefiro minhas teorias a sofrer por não saber o que são

Se perdeu de mim a confiança
Não há fim em uma aliança
Qualquer ponto pode ser o final
Pareço uma doida criança
Que teme tudo e acha que um graveto é uma lança
Pelo menos sei que viver sem fim não é tão mal

Só existe o meio
Então, façamos dele algo melhor
Nada de meio bom, meio caro, meio lindo
Mas sim um todo perfeito

It's you I want to be with

2009-04-21T14:41:00.000-07:00

I know a thousand reasons not to make you cry
I have learnt a lot about the heart
Now it's time to see what's inside
It's what life's all about

I know the way
I have gone a thousand times
I'm waiting so eagerly for this day
We'll never ever break this tie

I have the aswer for your every pain
I got lot's of enemies I have to slain
I really want to get to know you better
However it's you who decides what's deep inside

I'm not a box to be opened
Neither are you
We should spend the rest of our lives gazing at the sea
Waiting for something to happen or just anything
I wish I could be in London or Madrid
I wish been anywhere just you and me

I'm happy for seeing you smiling today
Maybe it's just a silly thing of mine
If we don't say we'll never know what's deep inside
I'm tired of gazing at false sacred places
Maybe my god statue looks like you
You're divine
I have said that a thousand times
And still I'm looking for your true self inside

Within my heart there's an empty space
For keeping anything for a certain time
You are not there. You're else where In a place I can't forget
Where I can protect you from cruel words of mankind
Which are not made to unwind

So let's go
We have many things to do
There's so much time
We need to know
Life is about being true
But never mind

We'll be together... Ever
In far off memories or scattered dreams
I don't actually know What I mean
If it's you I want to be with

A gate to somewhere

2009-04-13T19:29:00.000-07:00

I feel somewhere in me I don't belong here
I'm kind of lost, kinda blind
I pretend being someone else
But it's not what I desire
It's an open door
Of a heart that exist no more

I'd like to see the sun
But you stole my eyes
They're really gone
I'll never see it bright
Silly one on the floor
With a heart that exist no more

I'd like to sail away through the seven seas
Just on a boat far from here
Just you and me
Is that clear?
And I'd port in a distant shore
Far from this heart of yore

I don't know where you're going to lead me
Maybe it's far away
Maybe I'll just stay
But you make me wanna go to a place I don't know
I'd like to be somewhere just for pleasure
And have fun during leisure

It's a time scar
It's healed very soon
I'd walk you home or to the moon
It's the same for me
Cause I'd do anything you

Tired of being an example!!!

I do a thing or two and everyone thinks it's amazing
But it's just a thing to be done and nothing wonderful
Maybe I have a lot of energy saving
I'm tired of being so cool
I don't think I'm the best
They say it And I contest
I like things done right and fast
But I'm just a silly boy no more and no less

I'm tired of being an example to be followed
I'm not a leader or anything
I'm just hollow
I can't even sing

It's always the same routine!
I'm tired! I want to scream
I said I'm not a prince or king
I just like things done right and fast
I'm a silly boy no more and no less

But there's something I must say
Somewhere inside of these walls
I'm a mere guy, someone who is always afraid
The dark give me the creeps and I need someone to call
If you simply understood!
I'd give up all if I only could
I want to go out to another land
And go to a place hard to find
Alone, without animal or men

What's this? Do I need a kiss?
I'm not the same
Perhaps a bit insane
You never know it
Forever chaging is my name

I'm out and I'm lost
I have a coin to toss
I wish I could be brave
And just say it
But it's completely new
I don't have a clue
what it is
What's this?
Maybe I only need a kiss
I'm so stupid sometimes
I'm always out of my mind
I just like things done right and fast
I'm a silly boy no more and no less

useless words

2009-04-11T15:19:00.000-07:00

What is this weird thing?
I haven't got a clue
Is it a king or a queen
Or perhaps someone in a very good mood
It uses something... a strange tool
Amazing. The best thing I've ever seen

What's this? It's so unique
I'd like to have words to describe it
I just don't know them
I'm so silly
It surprised me
Just as it did to any other man

I'm still looking for something to say
Cause I don't know what I should be making
And maybe I'm quiet
For I don't have any words worth saying...

Just like birds

2009-04-07T20:12:00.000-07:00

Winds must blow toward the sun
And my dreams must fly away
All I did was good and now done
I really don't want to say
My love is back
And I don't know
If that's bad or... No

I live now just like birds
In a cage
I'm lost just like a dog
When the owner has closed the gate

I will find the strengh I need in you
No one will ever bring this feeling back
Maybe it's a trap
Maybe it's just me going mad

For us and all the people around the world
Who don't know my words
Are true
I just want to be with you

My home

2009-04-05T13:46:00.000-07:00

We were meant to rule the world
And make peace with our words
But now there's nothing but hope
In this reality filled with trouble

I made a list of things a should do before I die
Have chlidren, write lots of books and kiss you a thousand times
It's been a while
But I'm here to make you smile
No need to cry
There is plenty of time before I die

I builld us a house
Where I want to turn into a shelter
There is a window we'll be able to watch the white clouds
Together... Ever

I don't want my dream to fall
I will end famine and drought
I'll go to war and stand tall
And end it all with a flower I brought

This is a deep dark forest but we'll see some light
In the end everything seems alright
Just keep on going and forget all the lies
Stop pay attention to your heart instead of mind

So this is our world now
Just stay here, you and me
In a way or anotrher we'll fly higher
But look at the ground
We're flying but it's so good to know we have a place to land
You understand it
Scream "I have plenty of time" very loud in the woods
Just like no one could
Use all the power in your skin and bones
Just say this is your home

I made a list of things a should do before I die
Have chlidren, write lots of books and kiss you a thousand times
It's been a while
But I'm here to make you smile
No need to cry
There is plenty of time before I die

No need to say good bye

2009-04-04T08:54:00.001-07:00

Don't need to miss me
All our good deeds are here
And just close your eyes and remember my face
It starts as a strange thought but keep waiting
I'll come back when your image starts failing
And I'll be here if you keep calling
I'll come back when the rain stops falling

Don't say good bye
Everything changes but I'm the same as before
A good friend who stands for you in the dark
and guide your way through a broken heart
I'll come back to you as I did in the start

Look at the sky and picture my face in the clouds
I'll go into you're mind It's not my fault
Don't watch me going sailing away
That means I don't want you to say
Good Bye
I'll come back, right?

Keep all good memories in your mind
Remember me kindly
Whatever happened, happened
No matter what lies ahead
We'll always be together
So don't say good bye
Keep me in your mind
And remeber my kisses deep within your heart
I'll come back as soon as I can
And all will be great just as it always was.

Even though I'm not here doesn't mean I don't love you
I have your photograph with me and many memories
We'll always be together... Ever
I promise. I'll stop talking
I'll come back when the rain stops falling

Deep within a soul song

2009-03-31T03:09:00.000-07:00

Someday you will find me
Under your bed begging you not to shed anymore tears
And make you remember what was good all these years
Do what you must do and forget all your fears

Someday you will find me
Hiding behind a tree
Making you feel but not see
Promise me you care and I’ll be there

Someday you will find me
Climbing a mountain just wishing you’re on the top
I’ll make it, climbing around the clock
Seeking you... The love I sought

Someday you will find me
In front of your window singing a beautiful song
Wishing you’d be there to hear
Come near and sing along!

Someday you will find me
An old man and sitting next to you
So you’ll ask me
Love is a mystery without clues?

Someday you find me
Around you making noises saying “I know”
In response to your “Do you love me?”
I’ll answer “From DEEP WITHIN MY SOUL”.

She's a princess and I'm a toad

2009-03-20T15:41:00.001-07:00

She is a princess without a prince
She is so pretty
When she’s here it’s hard to breathe
Her image rests in me
The best image I’ve ever seen

Running always toward the wrong way
No matter what I do
She never listen to what I say
I did all I could

She is a lover
My life is the toughest
This is a terrible destiny
I need to rest in peace

I have her beside me
We’ll never fall down
I’ll hug you, my dear
Till dawn

She is a princess without a prince
She is so pretty
When she’s here it’s hard to breathe
Her image rests in me
The best image I’ve ever seen

Why should I care?
She is there like a witch who cast a spell
For it I fell
I shouldn’t be there
And since I fell... I want to remain here
I don’t want to get up
No matter how hard I try or what I do
I have fallen for you.

My love is not made of sand
She is there making me feel more powerful than any man
I’m really a puppet in a lonely string
This is the song I want to sing
And the sight I want to see
Just say you’ll be there for me

She is a princess without a prince
She is so pretty
When she’s here it’s hard to breathe
Her image rests in me
The best image I’ve ever seen

I looked at the mirror
And saw another face
Time has passed so fast
I’m someone else in another place

Prison is not the reason

2009-03-17T10:17:00.000-07:00

I was tired but you couldn't let me go
I just wanted to go home
You said I could, although...
Everything would be done
And I did not need to come

You kept me for yourself
And protected me as the wind blows
I was there in your shelter
No one knows

I need to go home
There is where I belong
I like the taste of your mouth
But I need to see the clouds

Don't put me in a cell
Don't keep me for yourself
I need air
I love knowing you care

Don't stop loving, don't stop dancing
Don't stop going, don't stop laughing
I'm here for you but I need to go now
I'll be back soon in a way or another... Somehow

This is how begins the worst prisons
There's no reason at all
And so begins a treason for the prison to fall

Pobre coração

2009-03-11T13:09:00.002-07:00

Escrevi uma canção
Falando de tudo
Das mentiras da vida
De um coração fajuto
Do amor dessa gente
Que não quer se calar
De jeito algum
De sangue quente

Escrevi uma canção
Para falar de amor
Para ouvir os gritos
De perdão
Pobre coração
Não ouço mais
palavras simples
Pequenas como tais...
As que sumiram daqui
Procuro a mais bela
Mas pode não existir

Escrevi uma canção
Para falar de você
De suas manias
Do seu modo de ser
Queria lhe pintar
Um quadro todo dourado
Parecendo um velho retrato
Que não some jamais
Sinto dizer que não perdi inspiração
Pobre coração

O espírito se feriu
No momento em que partiu
Não ao meio
Mas de outro jeito
Quando você sumiu
Tento recordar de tudo
Mesmo sendo absurdo
Por isso escrevi essa canção
Para falar de amor e não de luto
Embora lute muito
Pobre coração

Escrevi uma canção
Para falar de dor
Que é se perder
Perder o calor
Num mundo cinza e sem cor
Onde não há nada de bom
Nem o seu amor
Peço então que vá
Sem lembrar
Que passou por aqui
Dessa forma: assim
Vá em direção
A um outro pobre coração

Chorar? Não há o que mudar
Chuver? Não posso nem querer
Eu quero, fazer o quê?
Penso que nunca irei cantar
Essa canção... Do pobre coração

Compus por cima da dor ou do amor ou do mar
É difícil de explicar
Fique se quiser ouvir
Ou simplesmente conversar
Tenho tanto que dizer
Mas não sei por onde começar
Que tal falar do passado
Tão empoeirado
E relembrar de uma velha canção
Sobre um pobre coração?

Let me come closer

2009-03-11T13:09:00.001-07:00

Let me come closer
Near you is where I wanna be
make me feel all that comfort
You never heard
and you've never seen
I disapointed

let me dream a bit more
I don't know where I should go
I can't talk, my throat is sore
This heart I should throw out

I'm in a crossroad
Lost and don't know
Which way I should take
here I feel cold
When you're away
But now I have to live
and keep the love I couldn't give

It's so hard. No strugles anymore
I want to dry my tears
Stando for what I've always stood for
Drink some wine, water or beer
Now my eyes are clean
I see it all clear

whisper saying you love me
At least once in a while
Say it in a language I understand
Draw a red heart and show me
but not one so fragile
make me feel a man

Separate ways
Don't know which one to take
this is a decision so hard to make
just let me be with you
I'll tell every beautiful word I know
and I'll love knowing it's true

Out of me

2009-03-06T17:12:00.000-08:00

I don't know, I'll do whatever I can
Maybe it's not a job for a single man
It's far difficult from all I've seen
It's you being far from me

My sorrow was whashed to the sea
And is now in a place so far from here
It's in a distant dark land
Where there's no water and not even sand

My arms are open, but you seem away
I can hear your voice but not that loud
Please what day is today?
Tell what it's all about

I want to know you better than anyone
Want to hug you so tight and feel as warm as the sun
Tell me you want to stay at least a bit more
Don't let me dying in here till my very core...

I want to see you once more
Here at my shore
Seeing you leaving is so hard I can't believe
It's like something's out of me...

Vivendo e vendo

2009-03-03T18:42:00.000-08:00

Longe de todos e de tudo
Sinto que nunca fiquei de luto
Pois no ar lancei minha sorte sem atentar
Que me guio ao norte sem pressa de chegar
Caminho com um intacto orgulho de quem não quer saber
Se o seu coração tem um muro agora não pode ter

Sou valente e forte
Não temo nem as tristezas da vida e nem a morte
Não se esconda do fim porque é assim
Que não chegarei mais aqui
Faça nesse muro um corte
Ele vai cair logo, pois não é forte
Deixando o caminho livre pra mim

Sigo sempre em frente para logo chegar
Não importa o que vier ou contra o que irá lutar
Não demoro porque sei que não gosta de esperar
A minha vitória apenas quem viver, verá

Garden

2009-03-01T11:25:00.000-08:00

I see! There are flowers everywhere
The best of all scents in the air
I could have gone out but instead
I'm here enjoying this shinning garden that no one dares
To compare

I see! These flowers are unique
No one has ever taken care
No wonder why they are so beautiful
So many colors that are only here and no where

The wind blows so silent through the hair
My skin and bones tell me one thing
I should go and explore a bit more
This garden no one will ever see

This garden is near a rainbow
And has so many colors that no matter the kind of weather
Because there's no sad time all are the best
There's no better place to stay
I say
Come and join me
Let's travel with no documents or thinking about
Meetings and appointments
Everything will be just fine
All right?

So come silent
And you'll see this beautiful garden

The fall of a soul

2009-02-26T18:00:00.000-08:00

So there's no time to wait
I wish I could say that to you
But this storm is so strong
I can't go on

I saw the yellow moon and you were sleeping
I wish I could be part of your dreams
All I can do is waiting
Warning! Warning! It's too late

I don't want to be past
It has to last
Although it doesn't depend on me
It could
But who cares if you say "I don't miss"

"I do" is all I can say
I wish you could stay or come back
Easy like that
Let me into your heart
It'l be the star of something
You don't name
Cause these feelings are all the same

Hey, I want to come home from work
and say I love you once more
Or be just so close
I'd just feel great. I'd adore it

Pay me when I become a sad star in a fallen sky
Forget if I didn't see the truth in your eye
But I couldn't stop thinking of you
I just couldn't do
So it's my sad requiem
The way it'll end
I go away for there isn't love anymore
Now my soul is like a twisted thought: torn

A sad soul fades when was so pure
And died of a desease with no cure
The soul falls
It's something will happen to us all

Cansado do cotidiano

2009-02-25T17:10:00.000-08:00

Estou cansado de fazer sentido
Chega de ser tão real
Quero algo diferente
Estou cansado de parecer comigo
Cansado de ser normal
Preciso ser menos prudente

Estou cansado de ver tudo tão igual
Não quero ser só mais um numa multidão
Ou um peixe no mar
Quero um lugar para chamar atenção
Mas não precisa ser pedestal

Estou cansado dessa vida de gente infeliz
Onde quem não tem razão
Acha que o certo é o seu umbigo
Estou cansado de nunca ter o que sempre quis
De dizer não
quando queria sim

Estou cansado de me perder no oceano de ilusões
Onde nenhum barco jamais voltou
A tempestade chegou com sua chuva e trovões
É assim que estou...

Estou cansado do infinito que nunca acaba
É sempre a mesma coisa chata
Espero ter um fim, porque assim
Encontrarei um lugar para descansar
Que seja bom pra mim

Estou tão cansado, acho que não posso nem sair
Me sinto fraco, vou dormir

Great friend

2009-02-22T06:51:00.000-08:00

Let's feel better no one is looking
Don't let them shatter you by mocking
You need to get along
Just sing this song

See the sights? Well you might
She's there for you
I know, she looks like a fool
But there's nothing she can do
Look again. Can't you see inside?
That's the very best part
I know it's hard but you must see
Don't fool around with your heart
Don't ever let it be

The sound she does... Unique
It's absolutely something you must hear
I know it's not just me
Walk a bit and go near

Look! A kiss
How I miss
It's this
Let's live!

Oh my! Everyone's asleep
I looked! There's no one over or underneath
Try it at least one time
You'll get it, darling
It's only about timing
It's real not thearter
Once you figure it out
It'll all be clear

There's something very wrong now
Something strange somehow
What's this? Won't you go?
You have to. kissing is a thing she does.

I know! It's your little shy soul
But it's usual everywhere
Every place you go
Something will happen just like over there

I'm tired of giving you advices
Forget it! No sacrifices!
Look at your pale face
You need to go to that place

I said it but I'm not mean
It's so good. The best thing I've ever seen
So go and get a long
While singing this song

Don't let them say you'll be cursed forever
I'm here to make you feel better
I'm here to make you happy no matter what
It's a promise. We'll always be together
Don't let them say you don't have someone
I'm by your side for so long
I'll always have a hand to lend
Because your my dearest friend
So go and get along
While singing this song

The scared little monster

2009-02-21T10:27:00.000-08:00

I know who is there
I just don't care
If you are good or bad
Forget being here
I don't want to see a tear
Now, get out of under my stairs

I see you have crimson eyes
Glowing red all the time
Listen to me
I'm bad but not mean
I just want to hear your scream

This is a town so far away
Far from you far from grace
I just want to tell you
with the snakes as hair
That is so good to be scared

You're so lonely and I know that
You are not even really dead
So come near
I'll tell you something
A whisper in you ear

This is a town where everything may happen
And only the good ones are clever
But don't dare to find an exit, dear
Or your voice no one will hear

So it's good for who is there
It's a place no one care
It's so sacred and so good
Believe me
I'm telling the truth

Outro lugar

2009-02-19T09:42:00.000-08:00

Esse é um lugar difícil de achar
Quase ninguém procura
É depois de uma rua escura
Onde nem a luz consegue chegar

Quem vai não volta
Fica por vontade própria
É difícil de achar
Mas é pior para voltar

Não tenha medo
Não há o que temer
Na hora de entrar tenha respeito
Saiba o que querer

Suas escolhas não importam
Suas tristezas serão trocadas
Por outras emoções ou uma emoção
Ou outra que será dada

Não tenha medo desse lugar
Tenha só respeito que de um jeito você vai ficar
É tão bom, será fácil ficar
Só não pense duas vezes para ir, pois não vai voltar

Estado errado

2009-02-17T12:27:00.000-08:00

Sou errado, não ando em linhas retas
Estou fora desse Estado que acha que tem regras
Sou um segredo, algo no ar
Sou humano, tenho medo
Medo de amar

Não adianta dizer que é tarde
Para mim nunca pode ser
Digo tantas vezes, minha garganta arde
Pra sempre vou dizer

Tenho um mundo inteiro na minha cabeça
Você é uma cidadã
Lhe vejo todos os dias no meu mundo sem pressa
Sem paz, sem guerra, sem cidade, sem selva
Nele só há você

Tudo é tão simples
Tão fácil de se resolver
Menos o meu medo
Que é perder você

O meu Estado é diferente
Não tem fronteiras
Por isso lhe darei o que queira
Seja frio ou quente
O que passar pela cabeça
A primeira coisa na mente

Só não deixe estar como está
Mude
Continue
Faça por onde
Vamos terminar de um jeito que nos orgulhe

As lágrimas não são tudo
Elas só lavam um rosto sujo

A promessa é o que me resta

2009-02-17T12:18:00.001-08:00

O seu jeito é tão doce
É tão natural
Mas quando muda quebra tudo
Como vento no temporal

A verdade é tão louca que nem parece ser o que é
Sabe o que quero dizer?
A mentira é tão presente que a gente nem sente
Ela é um ser diferente

Seus olhos me dizem o contrário
Você quer ficar aqui
Partir já não vale mais
Fique, não batalhe contra sua vontade
Estás confusa! Não corra!

Você é tão doce que nem parece normal
É algo tão natural
Você não deve existir, viu?
Sumiu?

A promessa é o que me resta

Alguém que amo

2009-02-13T08:29:00.000-08:00

Existe alguém que nunca sai da sua cabeça
Você sempre volta para ela não importa o que aconteça
Ela está sempre conosco
Na dor, no amor, na tristeza, na alegria
Ela tem uma certa magia
Podem me chamar de louco

Existe alguém que é importante
E que se importa com você
Ela nunca sai da sua mente
Não importa o quanto tente
Ela está sempre lá
Com a mão em sua direção

Talvez você precise dela
Talvez você a ame e nem saiba
Talvez nem queira largá-la
Não é fácil não
Mas talvez as coisas certas são as do coração
Mesmo sendo loucura é verdade
Não cause tanto alarde
Você encontrou o que queria
O seu amor que você tanto lutou para esconder
Não importa, ela te ama por isso
E você nem sabe
Pare de se perguntar
Estejam no mesmo lugar

Existe uma pessoa que só quer seu bem
Talvez seja a pessoa certa
Será que ela existe?
Sim, ela sempre te ouve
E te dá bons conselhos
Não importa o seu reflexo no espelho
Ela te vê como você realmente é

Existe uma pessoa que sabe fazer tudo na hora exata
Ela sempre briga com você. Nunca se cala
Elas só quer seu bem
É bom isso, o que é que tem?
Ela te ama também
Ela é esse alguém
Quem te fará feliz pra sempre

Talvez você precise dela
Talvez você a ame e nem saiba
Talvez nem queira largá-la
Não é fácil não
Mas talvez as coisas certas são as do coração
Mesmo sendo loucura é verdade
Não cause tanto alarde
Você encontrou o que queria
O seu amor que você tanto lutou para esconder
Não importa, ela te ama por isso
E você nem sabe
Pare de se perguntar
Estejam no mesmo lugar

A dead man who loves a living woman

2009-02-12T07:55:00.000-08:00

I can't blame myself for being late
I tried to postpone it
But it was my fate
They call me mate
I don't want it
It's not for me to take

I'm lost yet I have found you
I'm dead and you're alive
We'll have to wait for you to die
I can't go back in time
Forgive me but it's impossible
Please forgive
I want you for real
But you still have a life to live

I feel no pain
Although I'm heartless I feel it
How can it happens?
I'm dead. Everything should taste the same
But I feel you for real
I can feel

I still have some tears to shed
I thought I was dry
But it's not true, actually a lie
So it's not that bad

We'll meet someday
You still have a life to live
And when you meet your fate
Come down and find me

Something I'll not miss

2009-02-09T17:04:00.000-08:00

You treated me
Cared for me
You took so good care
The pain now I can bear
I can't stay here
Because I was going home

You liked me from the first time
I can't stay
My wounds are good now
You healed them
Don't you believe in what I say?
I was going home

How could you give so much?
I have nothing for you
You treated me
I was down
It's not my hometown
I'm so far

I was lost
You found
Gave me life
I'm happy
It's day or night?
I must go home

You want me to stay?
You love me?
How? Want me not to go now?
I'll be here

So I write I song
Because here is where I belong
Now I'm strong
I'll live on my own
Here is my new home

And with you...

It's so simple
It's a thing I don't want to miss
Your last kiss

My secret Lullaby

2009-02-09T16:29:00.001-08:00

Feche os olhos
A escuridão não dura pra sempre
Logo o dia nasce
junto do sol forte e quente

Seus medos se vão
Assim como eu
Somos sãos e sãs
Então até amanhã de manhã

Não importa se demora
O amanhã logo vem
Trazendo a sua vitória
Te verei ser alguém

Agora durma
Tudo está bem
O amanhã chega
São algumas horas
O que é que tem?

Durma bem, meu amor

Flying away

2009-02-08T19:15:00.000-08:00

When I close my eyes I see you
So far away
I dream of you
But when I'm awake there's nothing I can do

When I'm weak I don't know what to say
I stare at the sky and see many stars
Please hear my voice even if you're away
I don't want to disapear wishing you were here

I fly across the land looking for you
But Found many things
On those distant shores
Unless what I was looking for

The path is so hard
My journey may not ever have an end
Perhaps not a happy one
It's all said and done

When I close my eyes I feel the lights fading
And here I am right here waiting
But you never come
When I close my hands and my power fades
I hit destiny right in the face
I'm alone

I haven't stop thinking about you
Not even for a single moment
Please don't ever forget me
Don't ever leave me behind

If you're still willing to meet me
I'll be flying across the sky
Searching for a place to land
By your side

It's hard to stare at you
So happy...
Sorry I don't want you to be sad
But... Your happyness hurts me
I'm a fading light
I have lack of life
I'm tired of my stupid lies
I'll just fly

Flying somewhere far away
Where no one will reach me
And someday people will notice
I desapear

Não sei o que é

2009-02-08T19:14:00.000-08:00

Eu sei que é ruim dizer isso,
Mas eu realmente sinto tristeza
Em vê-la rir longe daqui
A cada sorriso com outros
A nova forma como pensa
Nunca mais sorri

Sei que não tem volta
Nem sinto saudade
Talvez isso tenha outro nome
Sempre tem
Derrota
Nada está no mesmo lugar
Sinto tristeza
Minha alma sente-se diferente
Não que não queira vê-la feliz,
Mas porque não está aqui

Sei que seu olhar se foi
Está direcionado a outro lugar
É por isso que naõ gosto
E nem penso em mais amar...

A time to remember

2009-02-07T09:33:00.000-08:00

Sometimes the rain just falls
Sometimes I just want your touch
Or even a call
I want it so much

I can't stop thinking that we are apart
That we don't see each other
But I can't forget even if you are that far
I'm just looking into a photo of you in a bar

This weird feelings are inside my heart
I miss you so much
I just want your touch
Since I remember you you're by my side

I'll never forget you, you see?
You're here with me
Inside my heart
Telling me I was right to wait
Because I see you coming
I'll know it's worth waiting

I will never ever surrender
And this hard days
Will be a time to remember

Hope

2009-02-02T12:07:00.001-08:00

I guess I have to walk further
In order to find light
Maybe I'm not close
But I don't want to lose it from sight
Don't want to be stoned
I want to find light
The light that'll be the owner
Which will guide me through the night

I know it's not a lie
I know we'll make it right
Don't care if you don't believe me
Don't care if you'll come
Tell me what to do
Tell me one time maybe two
I just want to make it right
Just want to find my light

It's not the solution
But maybe, just maybe
There is no truth
No light, no wrong, no right
It's not a solution
But I don't want to believe
Hope is an ilusion
Don't push me back
I stay with the living and not with the dead
Our minds are ready for the collision
Don't tell me hope is an ilusion

Love song

2009-01-28T19:23:00.001-08:00

That's okay
I just have something for you now
A stupid love song
I made it somehow
Take it with you and remeber
Thanks when I hear your voice I'm no more lonely
I'll never ever surrender

This is my sacrifice
But read my thoughts
Thanks for listening
Now it's done
My silly love song

Someday it all be over
But at least let me remenber
It's december
And something tells me I'll be lucky
Found this four leafed clover
Don't think our time is only this
One day I'll prove you
But now I just don't want walk home alone
That's why I wrote you this love song

Dear

2009-01-28T15:43:00.001-08:00

Every now and then
We try to understand
Who is out there?
Maybe I don't care?
Tonight

But this time you can tell me
What you have on you
Maybe the world weight
Is nothing compared to this
And perhaps it's just this way
And I'll never change it

Try to tell me this
Try to tell me
I can't be here for long
Although
I don't know
Don't have many things around
Say it out loud
Say it at least near my ears
Just whisper

Every now and then
Some try to make me bend
But I never surrender
Because
I'm free
Free from everything
Things are easy
You just make it harder than it is
Try to live a bit
Don't make any mess
Try to be happy in the end
I'll never bend to anyone
And you should the same
As I walk down
The road
Of nowhere
To no place
Stay
Don't go
I know

I want to have you to talk
Or walk
We know
Just throw away your hatred, your past
Your rage won't last
Dear love
Dear love

Let me fly into your heart

2009-01-28T09:15:00.000-08:00

Use your broken wings and fly
Try it one more time
I'd like to go
But you know
I can't lie

This neverending evening is the best time
My life is totally right
I can't love
And you know
This is the heart of mine

Look at the dark night
The stars are falling apart
And you see?
Just make me believe
I want to watch with my own eyes

You are one of the few people I have the pleasure to have known
So many wanted to be with me but didn't deserve it
So I like to keep dreaming like this
And one day I'll fly with you if you teach me
The stars will not fall
The sky will be there for us to fly
No matter if it's blue or black or even white
No matter the colour
Just let me fly into your heart

Dimenticare oramai

2009-01-23T13:56:00.001-08:00

Dobbiamo partire stasera
Non lo so e tu non sai
Ma dobbiamo andare via
O non andiamo mai

Rimarró a casa mia
Tu puoi parlare qualcosa
Oggi andiamo via
Parli con la tua bocca

Che cosa hai sucesso?
Dobbiamo partire adesso
O sarà più tardi
Meglio presto
Sono sincero
Non me piace aspetare

Andiamo insieme, donna
Non voglio fare tardi
Perché tra
Tre giorni tutto può cambiare

Domani noi conosceremo tutte le cose della vita
Amore, piacere, guerra e la bugia
Ma non possiamo dimenticare
Le cose che abbiamo imparato
O nel futuro non sapremo niente
Perché tutto... Abbiamo dimenticato

Anchora io lo so e tu lo sai
Non possiamo dimenticare oramai.

Note: My italian is not that good. So if there's something wrong here. Take it easy. I'm still learning.

Lay down before you die

2009-01-21T12:38:00.000-08:00

I've been out a bit
Don't know what I want out here
That's pretty clever
I fly using my torn wings
Sometimes I see people very clear
But it's almost never

Don't leave me thinking I deserve
I don't want to live like this
My heart is now lost in many pieces
You think you got the world
And in your hands are only sand
Dust from my heart pieces

It's going away
Don't leave me now
I know we'll work on it somehow
It's time to think about it
In a way or another
I will fall

If you want to go so badly
Just do it and never come back
Just wanted to say I loved you
Although I don't know why
I dont't have a clue

And excuse me
But I also ought to go. It's time
Go to bed and lay down
Lay down before I die

O nome do seu mar

2009-01-20T16:47:00.000-08:00

Não importa se o tempo passou
Não importa se você não volta
Não é tristeza muito menos revolta
Só não sei em que mar você mergulhou
Provavelmente não tem mares aos montes
E muito menos um com meu nome
Mas mesmo assim queria saber
Não custa não é?
Não tem mais nada no lugar
Me diga o nome do seu mar

Sei que algo aconteceu
Pensa como era
Pensa como tudo era verde e azul
Seu rosto delineado pela luz do sol
Mas agora tanto faz
Lembranças só me trazem revolta
Sei que não te trarão de volta

Nada é igual nem você nem eu
Mas você foi sem ao menos dizer
Adeus... e a mim
O destino é seu
Mas podia não ser
Podia ser diferente sim

O seu retrato me traz recordações
De coisas que não gostaria lembrar
Do seu rosto, do seu olhar, do seu beijo
Poderia, mas não teve outro jeito
Você preferiu ir a ficar
Não há do que reclamar

Me diga qual é o nome do seu mar
Onde você decidiu mergulhar?
As águas são mais cristalinas aí?
Ou são menos revoltas que as daqui?

Esse tempo que não volta
Que mostra derrotas
Que mostra como é ruim ficar sem você
Mostra como é triste não te ver
Me diga o caminho
Mas os seus mares são tão distantes
Nunca ouvi falar
Posso para casa te levar
Mas preciso saber o nome de seu mar

Palavras ao vento

2009-01-18T16:34:00.001-08:00

Procurei as palavras certas, mas nem sei se elas existem
Tudo o que quero dizer é que sou incompetente por não saber
Não sei falar direito o que quero
Às vezes nem quero nada mesmo
Mas é tão difícil saber do que gostar
Mas tão fácil saber do que não me agrada
Não me agrada a sua sombra
O seu jeito
O seu cabelo
O seu andar
O seu jeito de falar
Mas o que posso fazer...?
Não consigo te deixar

Existem assuntos que terminam rápido demais
Outros são viciantes e não quero parar
Vamos caminhar como antes
Até um dos dois cansar

Não, não quero viver para sempre
Nem quero que me digam quando vou morrer
Esse é um segredo que prefiro nem saber
Continue, mas não sem mim
Me espere
Não tenho pressa de chegar ao fim

Não é exagero, pode até ser
Mas você consegue me agradar
Mesmo sem querer
Nem precisa dizer nada
Mesmo calada
Posso ouvir sua voz
Não olhe para trás
Siga em frente porque é o melhor para nós

Chega de surpresas
Nosso caminho é fácil de entender
Não gosto de seguir. Tenho medo de sofrer
Te perder pelo caminho
Não posso imaginar...
Me desculpe se no início foi difícil
Prometo que irei mudar

O meu anjo chegou
Veio me buscar
Mas de você levo o amor
Que fui incapaz de lhe dar
Não espere por mim
Não vou voltar
Siga feliz
Não comece a chorar

Acabou...

"I don't know who I really am
Maybe I just don't give a damn."

PS: depois que fui descobrir que o título desse post é o mesmo de uma música que a Cássia Eller cantava. Mas não tem nada a ver com a música. Foi pura conscidência. rs

Nasci tarde demais...

2009-01-18T16:08:00.000-08:00

Não pude acompanhar meus poetas vivos
Mas entendo a nova sociedade criada pelos mortos
Sinto não tê-los dito
Que entre os feridos nos escombros havia alguém que os amava
A saudade deles é algo cultural
Dói, choca, faz a gente chorar
Eles se vão, nunca ficam muito tempo mesmo
É normal
Sinto não tê-los dito que os idolatrava
Que sinto também saudade
Agoniza a alma
Aliás, acho que nasci tarde demais

Não pude acompanhar os meus ídolos
Talvez os mortos têm um quê de santos
Algo que nos vivos não encontramos
Algo diferente e que não esperamos
O fim
Não há continuação em suas palavras
Não há diálogo
Muito menos um simples parabéns pelo trabalho
Sinto não tê-los dito que os idolatrava
Que sinto também saudade
Agoniza a alma
Aliás, acho que nasci tarde demais

Suas palavras ainda voam por aí
Sempre encontro algo novo nelas
Sou fã de cada letra sua
Pena que sumiu no ar
Tão rápido que mal pude admirar
Sumiu, evaporou-se como água num dia quente de verão
Mas o problema é que você não volta como chuva
Sinto você ao meu lado
Como se os papéis estivessem trocados
Agora sou eu que guio o barco
Perdão por não saber perdoar
Mas farei de tudo para te alcansar
Sinto não tê-los dito que os idolatrava
Que sinto também saudade
Agoniza a alma
Aliás, acho que nasci tarde demais

Bring me flowers in May

2009-01-14T08:35:00.000-08:00

Let's try it again
Ask me all question
Just like when you were getting to know me
Maybe it will work

It won't be the same
It won't be worse don't even mention it
Tell me all about you
I want to know

I'm going back to the end
because this way we'll be together
maybe not today
maybe not the way we wanted and dreamed on

Just bring me flowers in may
and on that day we'll be others
we'll change
But we'll also have new dreams
new lives, new minds
On May we'll be born anew
We'll not be alike anymore
But we'll never forget each other
For all I'm concern

I used to have faith in destiny
believed there was someone pulling his strings
but now I realized that we are alone here
can't you feel this?
Hear the choirs?
I do
They sing an amazing song
Now I know I'm not alone

Hear the sound of drums?
Hear the sound of laughter?
You'll know what I become
We'll be together... ever

Just bring me flowers in may
and on that day we'll be others
we'll change
But we'll also have new dreams
new lives, new minds
On May we'll be born anew
We'll not be alike anymore
But we'll never forget each other
For all I'm concern

When you get to them
Smell the perfume and not slain it
And in the end
We'll meet again

No longer a prince

2009-01-13T17:55:00.000-08:00

Now it's time to end this treason at all
Although we don't know the reason for an empire to fall
It's not beacause I want the treasure
But I have the pleasure to make this call

Having some people beside me I have grown stronger
Now I have this castle but I'm not the real owner
Sometimes I fear what is to come
Sometimes I flee for what I've done

I'm now as clear as the sky
I have paid for all my sins
My tears are no more 'cause my eyes have dried
And this means I really have tried but not as hard as it seems

I don't want to be there, at least not for now
I have to keep going
And forget it somehow
Someday the sea will be calm
But now it's cruel
And I'm almost drowned

Maybe my castle is not made of sand
Maybe I buit it on good floor
Now I understand
That I have to live and fight once more

"Live or let it die" said a man sometime ago
I don't care if it's a lie
So far I don't know
I don't really care
All I need is going somewhere
Some place you don't dare... to find
You'll not be there if you are kind

Forget my sins
I have sinned many times
It's not the worst thing or the worst part
It's just... me
Who I am? Don't know. I'm someone who lost
What have worked for
Now there's really no castle anymore

I'm no longer the best prince of all times
I have to face it
I have sinned and have put them in my castle basement
Maybe that's why I fear to write my testment

Destiny and time

2009-01-10T12:11:00.000-08:00

Nothing is gonna change that day
Me having you here so close
So close to this
I'm deaf for everything
But still I can hear your heartbeat

We are totally diferent
You're water I'm fire
You're the cold i'm the heat
And it's your heartbeat that I desire

Dancing and dancing all the time like you'd be forever
And never ever die
Waiting and waiting for whatevere there is
Destiny is just a friend of mine
He can gant me some more time
And you don't even need to please

I'm not out of my mind
You go ahead I go behind
I'll protect you from all the shadows and make you a line
With so many lights that the heartlesses won't find

Let's travel around the world
just like old couples do
No pain or despair could change my words
As long as I have you

And if destiny plays with us
and makes apart
Let's talk to the godess of time
And go back to the start

All the seasons began

2009-01-10T09:24:00.000-08:00

We were young
We were free
And everything
Seemed easy

We were here
We were there
We never really cared
We were down
We were up
We were everywhere

We were young
Life's free
Why not stopping here?

I could sing a song
I wrote for you
All the words are true
Now, believe
We are here
There is nothing to fear

Now and then
We'll face some trouble we make
Don't give up
Don't wake up
Dream of me now
Stay there... Silent

We were young
And I know why
You chose to stay
Don't say
I can see it in your eyes

We were summer
We were spring
We were everything

All the seasons began
Together
All the seasons began
Because of us
All the seasons began
Right here, right now
Don't say it's wrong
Just don't try to understand
You'll never comprehend
Why all the seasons began

We were young
We were stars
We were all the feelings
We were... a start. New lives
We were this moment called now

All the seasons began
Together...

Love is a sin

2009-01-09T11:14:00.001-08:00

Laying on the ground
Her body resides by her own
Heard that she died
But not now
She's there for more than a mounth
Some said that she was out of her mind
That the only one she trusted is long gone
I don't know
Maybe it's true, she died because of love
But is it worth doing?
Life is here to grant us all the wishes we want

Some said that she was going to meet someone instead
Some say it's an angel. A fallen?
Don't know
Let's take a look... better
She seems so peacefull so... Happy!
Did she find?
No, she didn't forget
Her sin was not taking her life
But loving too much

Why is it so dim here?
Like death is taking everything?
We have to clean it
And never love again cause it's a sin

A sailor's letter

2009-01-09T11:02:00.000-08:00

Going slow but never thinking of stopping
It's a blessing but also my curse
I want to get there soon
I know I'm just close

Don't wait for me
I be there late
I have to travel the seven seas
I'll be late
Don't wait for me

When you have to fall
Just give me a look in the eye
I'll be late. It's nothing at all
No need to cry
I have control I'll be there for sure
Swear for my soul I'll land upon your shores

But I'll be late
Don't wait
I have to travel the seven seas
I'll write you letters
so you'll also know that I'm alive
I made a promise I would never die

So go to sleep
Don't wait for me
Cause I'll arrive late
You don't have to wait
I still have your necklace
I'll be waiting at our special place

I love you no matter what
We'll always be together
Don't care if it's here or not
The time will make it better

I'm a dreamer just like you
But I'll be late

Now it's time to stop writing
The end is coming upon me
The waiting is not gonna be that long
Have my word, sweety
I have to travel the seven seas
But let it be
Maybe in April or July
Maybe even before
I'll be arriving
And the sad waiting will be no more

Am I supposed to love you back?

2009-01-09T10:47:00.001-08:00

Sometimes used to run away from everything I feared
I know it's not the right thing to do
Now it's loud and clear
I'll just have to wait for you
Give me your hand and guide me through
Every possible way
Give me one chance and I tell you
You'll know what I say

Don't try to picture me in a way it's not true
I'm far from being something good
Far from a prince on a shinning white horse
Far from the borders of the south
Just want you to know that my true self is hidden
Somewhere deep inside
In a place that not even I can find

I know this night is very black
And you're not coming back
So just laugh one last time
Cause the pain decreases somehow
Just do it, right?
Before I live this town

Imagine the most beautiful garden of all
I'll be there with my sword
But here I'm no more than a boy
You have my word
Don't picture me as if I were a prince on a shinning white horse
That's I'm not for sure
Forget about this image. Rip it off
But put it in your heart

Remember and let it be
Forget my face but not my touch
Forget my mouth but not my words
Forget the prince but not me

I hate when I don't know what I'm supposed to say
I know love is like this
Remember this day
I miss you but I won't come back
You don't know how lovely you are
Maybe you'll realize when I'm far

Am I supposed to love you back
But the way it is
It's not gonna happen

Someone who tried to teach me things of life

2009-01-08T16:36:00.000-08:00

Some people have taught me so much
I want to be like them
I want to pass my knowlodge
And not just heir it
Say when I'll be this one
I want to grow up faster
I want to stop the disaster
I need to know
I need to combat
I'll never let anyone make you feel sad
Be strong
We'll rule the world
You have my word

I don't want to be a puppet in a lone string
Although it's you who are pulling it
I want to get free
Maybe just a little bit

Rain is falling once again
The dark clouds are fast aproaching
But it's just rain
And it'll be gone soon... I hope so
I want to see the sun

Sorrow fills me these days
Tears never leave my eyes
I want all the water from may
It's not a lie

Maybe my will is not so strong as I thought
Maybe my love is not the one I souhght
Maybe my battles shouldn't be fought
But giving up is not what you taught
Me

Don't tell me to give up
It would be a shame
My body has all the strengh I need
Maybe there's something more here
Like some ancient entity
Something divine
Something not from our time

Your will to live keeps me strong
Now I have all the strengh I need
Tell me not to give up and all those kinds of things
Tell me to stop when I have to
Tell me to go back and retry
Tell me to look at the moon
And swear I'll never die

I don't know if I can
Just don't know
I have to be strong
Don't say it's not worth waiting
It's not worth fighting
It's not worth living
It's not worth loving
It's not worth... Having you here
You were the one who taught me some great stuff
Others not that good
Taught me to tell a silly lie
But also to say the truth
Don't go away now
I need you here

I never thought I'd say it
But I love you
Don't care if you're not the best example a boy could have
But I'm happy you're my dad.

Just don't tell me you'll be gone
I never said a good word of tenderness to you
Swear you'll come home
So I'll be able to say I love you...

So sorry...

Shooting Star

2009-01-07T09:16:00.000-08:00

Just walking with no where to go
Sometimes I do that
Walk away
Just want to sit here for a while, you know?
I like that
I always say

The starry sky is there with many lights
They say they are the dead
So I know where you really are
You're there
But don't wait for me
I still have many things to do
Many things I still haven't seen
But in time I'll meet you

Sometimes I walk with no where to go
But I look up the sky and know what to do
Because I know that the brightest star
That shines in the sky is you

I'm in an usual mood like everything is gonna get better
But it's just a lie although it doesn't matter
I came all the way here just to tell you that
I want to stay but not stay sad
In a matter of time we'll be together
It's the truth not a lie
I'll be here waiting 'till the day comes. Hope faster
To hug you tight

One day there'll be two stars
And men will know what they mean
Because they'll shine more than lights in the park
They'll be you and me

But if destiny makes one of us fall
And in Earth finding a new start
I want you to know that's his call
And we'll grant wishes being a shooting star

Sometimes I walk with no where to go
But I look up the sky and know what to do
Because I know that the brightest star
That shines in the sky is you

You are all that really matters

2009-01-06T17:50:00.000-08:00

I know you use gentle words to put my heart at ease
I know I always say too much but it is the way it is
Forget about going back you are all that I miss
Just do one thing for me. Please, only this

You've fought hard battles
Stay out of the field
You here is all that really matters
If you go, I have to know you'll use me as a shield

I don't want to write anymore letters
I want you here
That's all that really matters

You fly with your wings
Don't let me here
Let's do together all kinds of things

Faces we make

2009-01-06T16:34:00.000-08:00

Some said ''be yourself is all that you can be"
But I don't know I am so many in one
There a lot of me
And there's none

Under cerulian skies I see what you mean
Maybe not that easily
But I'm sure
I get all that you see
A lot lately
That's my curse

Can I sit beside you? Do you mind?
Don't be shy, you're amazing I'm not blind
Maybe what I lost I'll quickly find
Don't even need to take a look around

Is this what I want of you?
Just a happy face... Very close
Maybe that's what tells us why we love so many
Yet hate so much

Morning bird has flown

2009-01-06T12:04:00.000-08:00

You were good in this white dress of yours
Always brighting more than the moon
You're so gorgeous like and even more
Let's get out of here soon
Greet me with a great shinning smile
It'll be good... Better
Even if it lasts for a while
For me it'll be forever

I want you tonight
Love me in this room so dim
But hurry we're out of time
It's simple and clean
The choice is yours not mine
Let's have just a great time

This is a song to remember your laughter
Just that
How could I forget such woman who is better
Than any of those who are mad
It's living and getting along
It's just a simple song

You were so beautiful with no light
I can't deny
Now you're mine this being divine
I'm not shy
To say I got you although it was so black
When you walk away, I'm sure, I'll bring you back

Saw you in the morning talking to someone
Nothing has really begun
But we'll find each other some day in the dark
Maybe with a bit more light
Maybe being mine or being divine
Take your time you made me a mark
Going back made me a scar nothing less
In my heart you left a mess

This is a song to remember your laughter
Just that
How could I forget such woman who is better
Than any of those who are mad
It's living and getting along
It's just a simple song

I saw you in this dim dawn
out of my reach
It's a dying heart with a great disease
But now everything is calm

Morning bird has flown

Lost kingdoms

2009-01-05T17:17:00.000-08:00

I used to have a beautiful castle
But it fell
I used to live in a great sunny day
But now it's away
I used to have the key
But it's not here
I used to have memories, even sad
Now I don't know what I have

It's cruel I know
But it's the right thing to do
Killing is the right thing
He's not good
Neither am I
Both dead! They want it
Don't play dumb
Do it!
They're coming

I used to have great memories of flower fields
Now they're dead Just like they said
I used to have power
But now I'm lost Don't even know the hour
I used to feel the blood from my enemies
Now I don't have my men
They're all dead
Just like they said
I used to be a king
It's a silly thing
But it's true while it lasts
Now it's in the past

Broken swords and pierced shields
Loves lost along
The battle in the fields
Now it's all gone

Tears all around
Feel the smell of death?
Let's go out
It was all he said
Me?
All I could do was forget

Hear the dead singing
This is who I became
I'm the only one who hears
It'll never be the same

It's all my work
Don't care if I rule the world
All I want is being on distant shores
In a place I'm king no more

Heartless

2009-01-05T17:07:00.000-08:00

I'm not just a man
I'm more like a king
Don't know actually who I am
Maybe you could tell me

I wonder why we are not right?
Don't know why
Just wanted you here by my side
Life would be a lot easier

Death lurks in the spreading shadows
And waiting is just what I can do
She comes from a place I don't know
But she'll make me find you

If to lose is to find
And to find is to lose
What I have in mind
I set you loose

Just wanted you to ask all questions
Tired of walking in circles
Nobody said what to do
No one ever said it would be like this

I want to meet you and say...
I don't know I'll think about it later
Just wanted you here
like always
Come back and make it easier
Maybe chasing stars is hard
But I'll make it
You just shine there
I can see you
Because you're the only thing I see
In darkness

I'm ain't a heartless
More like a nobody
An empty vessel without a soul
But with brains enough to let it be

Uma breve apresentação - 2009

2009-01-05T16:08:00.001-08:00

Sou do tipo que gosta...
De verdade
se bem que às vezes nem tanto
Sou alguém sempre está a mostra
Sempre acordo tarde
É o que mais amo

Se você me conhece sabe quem sou eu
Se não chega mais para conversar
Se quiser ir o problema é seu
Mas querendo serei grato se ficar

Basta saber um pouco para conhecer tudo
Não demora nada
É fácil se perder em conversas sem conteúdo
Mas quem não gosta
Não entro calado muito menos fico mudo
Não invento e nem faço moda

Gosto de música lenta e boa
Na verdade nem lembro a última que ouvi
Mas sei como soou
É tão bom lembrar
Sempre é melhor do que realmente vivi

Forget everything - 2009

2009-01-05T15:56:00.000-08:00

Forget about the stupid enemies
They're like ants for you
No one really cares
You have many friends
I do too
I want to share

Forget them we'll not fall
Our castle is made of sand
But they can call more men
We'll stand tall

Forget about all that noise
It's nothing at all I say
Maybe it's not
a good thing to come our way

Being forgotten means something creep
Like if you were never here
And living in a place that never really existed
It's a bit sad
Probably shouldn't have said that

Forget about everything
Forget about love and life
But don't forget about me

Make me happy- 2008

2009-01-05T15:55:00.001-08:00

You make me smile
You do it right
Everyday I see you
My heart seem wild

I can see that
You bewitched me
Although I like it all here
You wanna go
I say: Please no
Stay with me by my side

I don’t know where to look for
This warm feeling is far from reach
This one is far from here

But I won’t be beaten
I know now
Every little thing is good somehow
I must go where I don’t know
But the point is I’m right

I can do that
So do you
Then, never come back
Feeling blue

How’s life-2008

2009-01-05T15:53:00.000-08:00

There is something this time
Something unpredictable, maybe not right
But this is how is life

We can’t say we’re alive
We can’t distinguish what’s black or white
This is something amazing, maybe it’s not that right
But this is how’s our life

None have done it right
Not even quite
But they did it
Though they won’t twice
This is unpredictable, maybe not right
But this is how’s our life

Me 2- 2008

2009-01-05T15:52:00.000-08:00

Cansei de esperar você chegar
Joguei, perdi
Pensei que fosse assim
Mas não posso errar
Errei, menti
Você não vai voltar

Eu adorava a dor de vê-la ir
Sabendo que ia regressar
De verdade não imaginei
Que doeria tanto
Uma dor que dói forte
Parece a morte
Vai parar quando?

Eu lembro como se fosse hoje
Não tenho certeza
Não te quero mais
Mas sinto tanto a sua falta
Você é minha água

Eu amo o seu jeito, mas
Odeio você
Não consigo esquecer
Momento, lugares, pessoas
Lembre-se
Te amo, mas não gosto de você

Pretendo partir para nunca voltar
Você fez assim
Nem me disse
Preferiu fugir
Não sabe dizer adeus...
Eu sei.
Eu sei.
Queria ter, pelo menos, ter tido
A chance de tê-la dito que a amava uma vez mais
Só mais uma, a última

Você foi cruel
Me feriu
Te amo
Mas odeio você
Queria o mar, a terra e o céu
E o que ganhei?
Nada!
Sempre escolho a pessoa errada.
Porque amar?
Quem precisa disso?
Eu preciso?
Eu preciso.
Eu preciso!
Eu preciso...

É difícil lidar com o dia-a-dia
Sem você
É difícil... Tudo é
Sem você

Por que não pensou em mim?
Achou que iria doer menos assim?
Foi embora sem deixar recado
Preferiu cortar sem sofrer
Como ferida
Mas doeu, minha querida

Querida não.
Você não merece
Eu te odeio, mas amo mesmo assim
Lembre-se de mim, pelo menos,
Não quero ser só um capítulo na vida de ninguém
Muito menos na sua
... Queria ser co-autor

Me- 2008

2009-01-05T15:51:00.001-08:00

Essas vagas lembranças são
Tão difíceis de serem entendidas
Parecem sonhos distantes
De estradas partidas

Penso em nunca mais errar
Não quero vê-la sangrar
Vá logo
Não importa se demorar
Vou esperar

Estive perto todo o tempo
Só você não percebeu
Bem, quem não percebeu fui eu
Sou mesmo lento

Não se lembre de como tudo era
Agora você vai só
Não me procure.

The inside of me- 2008

2009-01-05T15:49:00.000-08:00

I don’t want to see you
But I miss so much
This time all I want
Is a sad song
Of forgotten memories

I don’t want to hear you
Not at all I say
Not a single word

I don’t want to hide anymore
From you, dear
Or from your love

You don’t want to come back
This is what you say
But it’s not what you mean

This time I tell you
All I did was right
All was so good
But now all you do
Is just something…
I don’t want

I want to go away
Not to stay with you in my head
I will be far away
But no matter what I do
I’ll always be with you

This time my heart will stop bleeding
Because now I want
Not to be here
I say: Go away
From my head, from my heart

Some say it’s hard
Well, I know it’s true
But what can I do?
I may rip you off
Of me, of my soul

I just don’t guarantee
If you’ll be fine
If you’ll be alive
I don’t want to hide
From you anymore
I want a life

I know you won’t go
‘Cause you’re still here
Inside of me

Please, let me go
You hurt so much
You don’t know.

Please, set me free
I don’t want to cry
With these memories.

Looking you through the glass-2008

2009-01-05T15:48:00.000-08:00

I saw you through the glass
Only through the glass that day
You were so beautiful and sweet
But were far away
And here I am waiting for you to pass again

I heard you through the glass
Only through the glass that day
Your voice was kind and pretty
But was away
And here I am waiting to hear you again

I touched you through the glass
Only through the glass that day
You were such a beauty
But were away
And here I am waiting to touch you again

Now, I’m alone
I’m not that strong
Waiting for you is hard
But I’ll never give up. I have to hurry up
No one will see me
Because I’ll be at the place I always am
I will wait for you
And I’ll see you through the glass
Only through the glass
Waiting your beauty
This day, this way
But you are away
And here I am waiting for you to pass again

Someone else-2008

2009-01-05T15:47:00.000-08:00

No one is here
But here is the needle
The slayer is here with his needle
All the words he owns are mine
I don’t wanna sit
This is my only solitary night

Does he have a better life?
I bet: NO one
I bet: No one
Yes I know where it is
Cause around me is this one
Worth of using the needle
Who slayed the evil
All the things he owns are mine
I don’t wanna sit
This is what I missed this damn night

No one got a better life than mine
Because I live free from reality
Because I’m someone else
No one in years said what really mean
This is my life
Dark with lotsa stuff to do
When I’m here alone with myself.